It would not be an understatement to say that my life has been plagued with unhappiness, self-loathing and shame for many years now. Those who know me fairly well will be surprised at that, they will tell you I'm a really confident woman who is comfy in her own skin, but those who know me properly will see that it is me and my relationship with food.
Last week I went to a healing meeting for prayer and it was a fabulous hands on session as three Christians prayed for me. The things they said effected me deeply and made me do a lot of thinking and also gave me the confidence and strength to hand my food struggles over to God. For some crazy reason it is the only area of my life that I have not fully turned over to him. I struggle all alone and that is silly I know.
Well, I am feeling immensely grateful that I am starting to make good choices and I'm being mindful of what I eat and how I spend my time. I really feel as if a growing in this area of my life and it is long overdue.
I want to say thank you Jesus that I -
- have stopped eating once I feel full, even if there is food still on my plate
- have sat in McDonads while my family ate and chosen to have a coffee and then something more healthy for my tea once I am home
- have taken smaller portions
- have been conscious to drink more water so I don't want to snack
- have been to the cinema and not bothered to have munchies while I was there
I find it so easy to beat myself up and to be cross that the weight does not fall off me but it is really important that I celebrate each success and know I am taking steps towards where I want to be.
I'll get there in time, for the first time in a long time I feel confident of that!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones. Psalm 3:5-8I'm linking this post up with Jo at Reasons to be Cheerful, why don't you visit and see what the cheerful ganga re up to?
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