Tuesday, 27 March 2012
I am Beyond Popular Now.....
Funny title, hey? Sounds like I have gone a bit big headed on you and am now seriously rating myself. Nah, that's not it at all.
I've just had a bit of a realisation in the last few weeks that popularity has lost its appeal for me. It's easy to get sucked in and to see your blog move up the rankings but it is all pretty meaningless really, you know in the big scheme of things. Now, I am not aiming to knock anyone here or to disrespect, I admit it, I like the rankings and the blogging awards as much as the next person but I am just keeping them in perspective, they are a bit of fun in a small part of my life.
The aim for this blog was never to be the busiest, biggest or best - it was just to be me and to help people to get to know a real Christian Mummy. Not a perfect mummy image that a book may present or a Christian stereotype that you may have in your mind. It was just to show that us Christians are normal too. We mess up, we have fun, we dress OK (most of the time), we chat, we laugh and we cry but most of all we try, we live life and we enjoy it.
I mentioned to my husband a week or so ago that I seem to be being more and more overt with my faith on my blog just recently. The mentions of God, Jesus, praying, blessings etc have increased. I just can't seem to help myself, it is a massive part of me and it spills out of me. I know this blog is mainly read by non-Christians and I think I have done some self-censorship in the past to ensure that I did not turn off too many readers but I have got to that point in both my life and blogging journey to say sod it, if I am not your cup of tea and you don't want to visit, that is OK. There are millions of other blogs out there you may like better but I have to be true to me and I have to mention all parts of my life if I so desire. Whilst I love having you here and reading, I am not authentic when I am not fully me. If you like me then you like my expressions of my faith too, as we are inseparable.
I wrote a post a couple of weeks back, titled 'I see you' and I loved writing it, the creativity and words just poured out of me and it was a bit of a risk. A new style and a very overt statement of my beliefs and for a while it was my least read post but as a wise man said to me (and I had already commented to my husband too) that it is more important to be true to yourself than to be popular!
I'll leave you with that thought.....